My Voix My Way

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A few nights back I had an interesting conversation with an ex of mine and one of the things we spoke about was the fear, blaming and asking question when someone dear has passed on instead of learning from the kind of life those people lived. He argued that we focus so much on the pain that we loose perspective and thats not how he does it. One thing we forget as people we are not the same, we do not think the same and that there is a reason we are different, just because it doesn't make sense to you, does not mean that its wrong. There is an important part growth plays in our life and that grief we deal with it differently, so we must allow others to do so in their own way and step in when there is a need. I am not an expert in dealing with any type of grief but I know that there is a reason why there are steps to doing it because as humane as we are, our journey makes us who we are and helps in understanding and strengthening the self.

I know that this is a bit late but who cares? Anyways I decided to wake up early and make my way to town because the day before I was there but I forgot something Important so I took a taxi to town. On the way to there we passed people dressed In DA t-shirts running around the streets apparently celebrating the above mentioned holiday and then one of the ladies in the taxi started speaking about how people from that party cannot be celebrating the day when these are the very same people who took everything from us"blacks" and everyone started agreeing with her. We all know what this day is about, but what we are celebrating may have changed. I have been making my own observations as well as to what it evokes in us as people. We can sit here and speak about a rainbow nation and equality and yet we are unable to make amends and forgive what is supposed to stay in the past. With ever public holiday that puts us in the past we have been unable to make decisions, step foot in t

It has been weeks now and a part of me has been going through trying times and I cannot believe that I put myself through that again, I mean have You seen yourself. I was listening to sad songs for what I do not even remember why for days I felt sorry for myself and I shouldn't have done that. You see I did the one thing I promised never to do again. I think you forgot one thing when you met me, I have been broken before and the truth is nothing can ever tear me to shreds again. You see this is Me and this right here is REAL. It may be that you count yourself lucky enough to have seen me vulnerable and count yourself unlucky that you ever set foot at the door. In the past months this I have come to realize that I am one amazing human being and I tend to whisper it in the dark instead of shouting it out at the highest of rooftops. I woke up one day and I came across a beautiful soul, we started talking about random things in life and how they have had a totally different first i