My Voix My Way

I never thought it would happen again although this time its a little different, that one day that feeling that I thought I was afraid of all those years would actually caught up with me. Imagine my surprise when I was busy trying to outrun a leopard and the next  thing I know its digging its claws in my skin and there is nothing I can do about it. I used the leopard because its fast and thats how I believe it was, maybe a little unusual and distinct but since I have decided to deviate a bit from my normal behavior this year there was nothing wrong with it at all. I still cannot believe that it took a month for me to laugh about a past that brought me nothing but pain and suffering 7 years ago. It has not felt so real before than when you laughed in my face about the plans I had and I remembered an old favorite song of mine. In that instant it stopped hurting and I realized that the feeling was not my fear but the fact that people I shared it with just tend to leave and I was not r

I thought that I should share one of my favourite japanese song with you, tonight. I am writing them in both languages translated. KIMI ga Kureta Mono_ Kudou Shizuka Tada ureshikute naiteriru no                                           I'm crying because I'm happy tada kanashikute naiteru no                                             I'm crying because I'm sad sou sunao ni ikiru konna no                                            Living honestly like that, I can completely jibun de irareru                                                                be myself Aoi sora to umi ga                                                           The blue sky and sea subete wo tsutsumikomu youni                                        embrace everything kaze ni nosete sasayaku                                                    letting it ride the wind, I whispper "anata ha anata no mama de iinda" to                               "It's fine to just

The past week I finally managed to log on to facebook and to my surprise there was this picture that was making the rounds. I believe out of the first 10 posts it appeared 3 times and I was disturbed as the caption was the same. You see to me this picture is an insult because, most men would never make the same sacrifices that they expect from women. Why is it that women are the ones who have to bend over backwards and yet men just want a finished product. men want to be waited for and a patient counterpart but yet they are unable to do the same thing for us women. This might be just an opinion but truth is the world an even society rates us differently and I know most of you think I am being old here but if you actually paid more attention to your mentality which shaped by mostly culture because its what we are fed everyday. You will actually realize that what you think is your idea really isn't.  This is not feminism do not misunderstand me, this is just something that

There was someone who said to me, two months back, that this thing of having love and being loved in return is nothing but a bucket full of nothing, it will not pay the bills but money will. I looked at this person and I thought to myself is he serious. and then, i thought of all the other things that he has said to me before that and there was so much information that did not make sense so I kept my mouth shut like I always do. In simple language what the quote above means is that, having knowledge gives you the right to speak about some topics although it might be wiser to rather listen first and hear if its necessary for you to contribute and so learn more. What most of us are more concerned with is always having something to say but never ready to just listen. On Monday night, I was with my sister and i was seeking advice on how to handle things regarding my relationship and was that when I know very well that I cannot pretend even if it is to save my life, so moving arou

There has been a lot of uproar on the whole "Blesser" topic so I thought, why not? It has trended on  twitter for days with poor kids being exposed, there are facebook pages on it and now theres even a website called Blesserfinder and it was even feaured on checkpoint, tuesday night. This very Blesser was or is what we call a Sugar Daddy but moving with the times as well as the reaction of and posts of hashtags has led to a name change. It seems as if most youngsters do not have a clue about what they are putting themselves into, the trend and the benefits of it excites these girls and no one actually thinks about the future, the present nor the consequences of what all of this may lead to. Yesterday, on campus my friends and I were actually having a serious conversation about being a blesser and a blessee, the expectations and the safety of it, including the benefits. One of the guys pointed out that spending all that money and not securing your future when you are gettin