My Voix My Way

I have been observant to the year 2016's post lately we have received so much bad news and situations that we gave it a slogan "It only gets worse". We have one through so much and unlike every other year everything seemed a little more tense than normal and we to some it was a time where hope was lost. I wrote my exams afterwards I then decided to go home and support my friend however afterwards i decided to go see my mom in Vryburg. I have not been listening to music just downloading alot of it and hoping I will listen to it during my travels. I was listening to Justin Bieber's new album and one the track titled " Children " made my ears itch a little more than usual. The song speaks of being visionaries and fighting for the young ones future. It speaks about how much we want to change the world for the young ones, being the generation and aspiration  to fight for the future and the difference whether or not our hearts are big enough to to die for what w

My Voice My Way: Manthe Weekend : I have lived in a town called Vryburg in the North West during my high school years. This town is not far from a small town called Taung whi...

I have lived in a town called Vryburg in the North West during my high school years. This town is not far from a small town called Taung which is where my sister and a few of their friends annually go spend a weekend. We have heard stories about this town growing up and this was my first time staying a little bit longer. This trip started three years ago and every year since then we have put together our money and resources to make it happen. It is called the Manthe weekend, it is filled with fun, food, traditional partying as well as strengthened friendships and too much offloading. It was my first time this year and I will be letting you in on my experience. We plan for this trip on the last day of the weekend which is on a Sunday. The trip kick starts on a Friday where everyone leaves their respective places to the venue. We buy everything that we will need for the weekend in advance so that when we get there, we do not run around but stay at the lodge and have enough tim

I do not understand the figure looking back at me, thats what I thought after washing my face. The past did not look bleak nor blurry anymore in actual fact I was happy about what had happened and its funny how I was hoping to get over it quicker. Your sweet disposition and how long we gaze into each others eyes, and you might be okay but I am not fine at all. I walk around like I have everything under control but honestly it is nothing but pieces of me scattering and the floor getting dirty. I smile in the hope that I will be able to pick up the pieces and clean myself up because BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY and the world does not care, worst of all you could not be bothered. You broke me like a promise and I'm paralysed, I feel numb and seeing you everywhere is not helping me and I wish I could look at you and hate every bit of you. I have been doing my best to get to hate you but I have been unsuccessful in doing so even after you ill treated me I kept on loving you but I coul

We are approaching that season where people are able to bear it all out for the world to see and the thirst is on another level. It seems to be a new trend of thighs out, breasts  out, and skin in the open.  On my way from campus yesterday, there was a girl walking in front of me with a short skirt and the boys were staring like a dogs who just seen a piece of bone. Its funny because it wasn't the first time as the other girl on campus was wearing a crop top and the stares that came with the outfit was a little too much. This is just one of those situations where you want to wear anything you want and not be burned for it. I am not what I wear but I want to be able to wear what I want whenever I want and am comfortable in it.

It came to my attention on Thursday that people are quite spiteful and petty, it seems not everyone is as grown as they appear to be when you get to varsity. People are so obsessed with being popular and  that they make friends with the wrong people thinking that these people care about them when they don't. It also seems that people are not really concerned about loyalty anymore but are rather focused on the demeaning of other people regardless of how this will affect them in any way. When we grow up I like to believe that our circumstances make us who we are and because we have grown and understand the world a bit better we also do things better than what we would have in the past so when someone is poking you for a response and they keep doing things to you on purpose you asses the situation and decide whether it is a good decision to say something or not. A week before school started I asked God for courage, wisdom and understanding and this time the vibe was different, it w

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A few nights back I had an interesting conversation with an ex of mine and one of the things we spoke about was the fear, blaming and asking question when someone dear has passed on instead of learning from the kind of life those people lived. He argued that we focus so much on the pain that we loose perspective and thats not how he does it. One thing we forget as people we are not the same, we do not think the same and that there is a reason we are different, just because it doesn't make sense to you, does not mean that its wrong. There is an important part growth plays in our life and that grief we deal with it differently, so we must allow others to do so in their own way and step in when there is a need. I am not an expert in dealing with any type of grief but I know that there is a reason why there are steps to doing it because as humane as we are, our journey makes us who we are and helps in understanding and strengthening the self.

I know that this is a bit late but who cares? Anyways I decided to wake up early and make my way to town because the day before I was there but I forgot something Important so I took a taxi to town. On the way to there we passed people dressed In DA t-shirts running around the streets apparently celebrating the above mentioned holiday and then one of the ladies in the taxi started speaking about how people from that party cannot be celebrating the day when these are the very same people who took everything from us"blacks" and everyone started agreeing with her. We all know what this day is about, but what we are celebrating may have changed. I have been making my own observations as well as to what it evokes in us as people. We can sit here and speak about a rainbow nation and equality and yet we are unable to make amends and forgive what is supposed to stay in the past. With ever public holiday that puts us in the past we have been unable to make decisions, step foot in t

It has been weeks now and a part of me has been going through trying times and I cannot believe that I put myself through that again, I mean have You seen yourself. I was listening to sad songs for what I do not even remember why for days I felt sorry for myself and I shouldn't have done that. You see I did the one thing I promised never to do again. I think you forgot one thing when you met me, I have been broken before and the truth is nothing can ever tear me to shreds again. You see this is Me and this right here is REAL. It may be that you count yourself lucky enough to have seen me vulnerable and count yourself unlucky that you ever set foot at the door. In the past months this I have come to realize that I am one amazing human being and I tend to whisper it in the dark instead of shouting it out at the highest of rooftops. I woke up one day and I came across a beautiful soul, we started talking about random things in life and how they have had a totally different first i

I never thought it would happen again although this time its a little different, that one day that feeling that I thought I was afraid of all those years would actually caught up with me. Imagine my surprise when I was busy trying to outrun a leopard and the next  thing I know its digging its claws in my skin and there is nothing I can do about it. I used the leopard because its fast and thats how I believe it was, maybe a little unusual and distinct but since I have decided to deviate a bit from my normal behavior this year there was nothing wrong with it at all. I still cannot believe that it took a month for me to laugh about a past that brought me nothing but pain and suffering 7 years ago. It has not felt so real before than when you laughed in my face about the plans I had and I remembered an old favorite song of mine. In that instant it stopped hurting and I realized that the feeling was not my fear but the fact that people I shared it with just tend to leave and I was not r

I thought that I should share one of my favourite japanese song with you, tonight. I am writing them in both languages translated. KIMI ga Kureta Mono_ Kudou Shizuka Tada ureshikute naiteriru no                                           I'm crying because I'm happy tada kanashikute naiteru no                                             I'm crying because I'm sad sou sunao ni ikiru konna no                                            Living honestly like that, I can completely jibun de irareru                                                                be myself Aoi sora to umi ga                                                           The blue sky and sea subete wo tsutsumikomu youni                                        embrace everything kaze ni nosete sasayaku                                                    letting it ride the wind, I whispper "anata ha anata no mama de iinda" to                               "It's fine to just

The past week I finally managed to log on to facebook and to my surprise there was this picture that was making the rounds. I believe out of the first 10 posts it appeared 3 times and I was disturbed as the caption was the same. You see to me this picture is an insult because, most men would never make the same sacrifices that they expect from women. Why is it that women are the ones who have to bend over backwards and yet men just want a finished product. men want to be waited for and a patient counterpart but yet they are unable to do the same thing for us women. This might be just an opinion but truth is the world an even society rates us differently and I know most of you think I am being old here but if you actually paid more attention to your mentality which shaped by mostly culture because its what we are fed everyday. You will actually realize that what you think is your idea really isn't.  This is not feminism do not misunderstand me, this is just something that

There was someone who said to me, two months back, that this thing of having love and being loved in return is nothing but a bucket full of nothing, it will not pay the bills but money will. I looked at this person and I thought to myself is he serious. and then, i thought of all the other things that he has said to me before that and there was so much information that did not make sense so I kept my mouth shut like I always do. In simple language what the quote above means is that, having knowledge gives you the right to speak about some topics although it might be wiser to rather listen first and hear if its necessary for you to contribute and so learn more. What most of us are more concerned with is always having something to say but never ready to just listen. On Monday night, I was with my sister and i was seeking advice on how to handle things regarding my relationship and was that when I know very well that I cannot pretend even if it is to save my life, so moving arou

There has been a lot of uproar on the whole "Blesser" topic so I thought, why not? It has trended on  twitter for days with poor kids being exposed, there are facebook pages on it and now theres even a website called Blesserfinder and it was even feaured on checkpoint, tuesday night. This very Blesser was or is what we call a Sugar Daddy but moving with the times as well as the reaction of and posts of hashtags has led to a name change. It seems as if most youngsters do not have a clue about what they are putting themselves into, the trend and the benefits of it excites these girls and no one actually thinks about the future, the present nor the consequences of what all of this may lead to. Yesterday, on campus my friends and I were actually having a serious conversation about being a blesser and a blessee, the expectations and the safety of it, including the benefits. One of the guys pointed out that spending all that money and not securing your future when you are gettin

The truth is the pain that comes with, letting you in leaves me helpless, open and broken. I have tried to refrain and hope for the best that at the end everything will be okay in the end that it is not that  bad and that life eventually falls into place. Your plea to be with me and promises of nothing but happiness seem to be broken promises.  You will tell me that you love me and and i will accept  and just go back to you like a mindless zombie. Memories of you bring nothing but storms of confusion and unanswered questions about our present and the past that is full of lies and fatuous love. You do not understand that what we had is just a figment of your imagination nothing about it is true based on a lie even a sci-fi movie receives an award not this sham of a ship You speak of trust like its a penny "heads or tails" you ask it is neither just my heart  breaking all over again this road has run its course closing th

 This is one of my favorite artists and I hope you will love her as much as i do. I'm sure that it has been about four months now since I have discovered this beautiful soul and to most of you who don't know who she is this is Alessia Caraccciolo also known by her stage name as Alessia Cara. She is a singer and songwriter from Canada and started her music career by singing acoustic covers on you tube since 2011. She plays the Guitar and her unique style is compared to soulful rnb artists like Norah Jones just to name a few. I love how she portrays herself as an artist as well as the way she speaks about the actual reality of friendships and ourselves.  I think my biggest shock was finding out that she is only 19 years and yet her music was exactly how I felt and unpredictable. She simple, honest and straight to the point, speaks about success, not treading carefully, doing you, triumphing, parties and love. When she speaks of love its not how great it has been instead of the

I think most of you have watched the "Cat Woman" movie. The truth is for a long time I didn't  understand what my interest was, so i decided to do a bit of research for my own curiosity. What I discovered was how most women have a side that only a few have seen, I would not say that those people were fortunate but rather were just in the wrong place at the wrong time and managed to come across this Devil in a Red dress.  This is one character that lurks beneath the good, like an alter ego that only comes out after one has gone through a bad ordeal specifically pain and she is fun to be around, a freak and causes a lot more confusion than help with anything. I seem to like this character though, you see like a cat she does not trust anyone instead she uses the need that people want to earn her trust to her advantage. We try to surpress her most of the time as her ways are pure instinct and no good can come of her being discovered. We are usually told that a woman is not