My Voix My Way

I am looking in the mirror but there is something different about the image staring back at me. One evening as i am looking in the mirror preparing myself for a night out with my friends,i saw a sad image staring back at me. The young girl is 20 years or older she has beautiful brown eyes,her innocence was beyond repair. It seems she was heartbroken,covered in tears,heart in tatters. She is lonely and bitter,covered in scars some she does not even recognize anymore,the only thing she seems to make head or tail of is her pain and shame. i stood there looking at this image or reflection and realized that i was staring at nothing but the truth. It was ME no matter how many times i stare into the mirror every day putting on that much make up it does not hide the real truth when all doors are locked. The girl in the mirror has lost sight of happiness,her self worth and the world to her is just a white paper that ink does not appear in no matter how many times you try to apply it.

After you have been hurt once most of us become wanderers on earth, we search for things or we just exist merely for one reason being to prove a point that THEY ARE THE SAME OR TO FIND SOMETHING WAY BETTER. In our quest of finding this "true love" some will either become desperate while others will reconstruct themselves, being the best of themselves.  As I am writing this I believe most of us have already been number one. We get to this stage when we would do anything to keep this person, we don't matter anymore instead all that is important is their happiness. When we do not hear from them everything else comes crushing down like a ball of fire. I have never been very pleasing until I thought I was in love only to realize that I was actually young and naïve. I lost myself, sight of what I actually want in life outside of the relationship. Every decision was made considering its effects on the relations. There is always that one thing that keeps you going, that you

It was during the month of December  and i was listening to BEGIN AGAIN BY TAYLOR SWIFT. There was something different about you,it was relaxing and your child-like behaviour brought out the kid in me waiting in anticipation to get out. There is something intriguing and fun about you. You act all care free,live in the moment but never forget to take responsibility for your actions. Although most of the time it is as if you do not care at all while you know deep down that you care the most. You love like a girl and act like a typical guy. there is something about you that keeps me on my toes i believe it is the fact that i know i cannot mess this one opportunity,what we have is something that struck like lightning flashing on a hot sunny day totally unexpected. You are a friend,advisor and sometimes psychologist but most of the time my motivator. I think about u and pain is never in the picture but rather laughter,teasing and happiness. Honestly i do not want to lose you but your p

It is a rare companionship,one only comes across it once in a lifetime and if you are as lucky as i consider myself. It is one u have been blessed with since you were just a little kid. We fight like sisters,laugh like cousins,protect each other like family and always together like "monwana le lonala"finger and nail. They know that the other one cannot be around without the other it has always been like that and one cannot really mess with nature. We share a birth month,starsign,we always wnted to go to the same educational institution but life does not always workout the way you wan it to. If i count the people who have always had my back she comes to mind. We have always had a connection even when we were kids before we even realized that this friendship is nothing to be sneezed at. It is a gift from the BIG GUY up in the sky he watches over us everyday that passes by and he is the reason this friendship is still standing. You realize that you would do anything for

"You are something else,if any guy who gets a chance to be with you does not see that than I will gladly say that U  are too much of a woman for him". The kind of words you wish someone would say to you in that moment of weakness. There was something totally different about this compliment,it was genuine not another one of those "get into your pants" kind of compliments, I guess there really is a little bit of truth that when a woman is confident she attracts good vibes around herself even she is contagious to others. It not only that,I was confident with myself but I was extremely happy and totally comfortable with myself,my skin and even more my past. I used to think that i will never recover that I LIVED THERE  and there is nothing that my future holds that could be so much better than WHAT WAS. I did not realize that i am not my past but what i learn from my past will always determine how i handle my future. God had not only a different plan for me but it was

                            THROUGH THE BLINDS It was never the intention to feel the way i was feeling. It was not clear either if he was in the wrong place at the right time. His intentions where not clear as his words and actions contradicted one another. I  was not looking fr a companion witch is why when he came along i just looked the other way but he kept pushing until i gave in. There was something different about him he did not stand out,he was an outcast with as many baggage as anyone could think. He thought i was angel but come on its cliche right,it was not even on my mind but when i cracked that stupid joke i usually do he laughed so free was he around me. I was afraid to let him in not because of my previous expirience but i was not willing to risk the relationship that we shared on something temporary, i just wanted to enjoy one thing that made me the happiest with no strings attached. And then days without him or talking to him started to really get to me.