ALL TOO WELL

I do not understand the figure looking back at me, thats what I thought after washing my face. The past did not look bleak nor blurry anymore in actual fact I was happy about what had happened and its funny how I was hoping to get over it quicker.

Your sweet disposition and how long we gaze into each others eyes, and you might be okay but I am not fine at all. I walk around like I have everything under control but honestly it is nothing but pieces of me scattering and the floor getting dirty. I smile in the hope that I will be able to pick up the pieces and clean myself up because BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY and the world does not care, worst of all you could not be bothered.

You broke me like a promise and I'm paralysed, I feel numb and seeing you everywhere is not helping me and I wish I could look at you and hate every bit of you. I have been doing my best to get to hate you but I have been unsuccessful in doing so even after you ill treated me I kept on loving you but I could not risk saying hello to you because I already knew the answer. I had to battle every part of me because all I wanted to do was call but I knew you would not answer my phone call because you told me to move on and get over it, love fades. Now I am stuck listening to the likes of Adele and Taylor Swift because I have tried all methods of moving on and in the process I lost myself again but this time it was different, you broke my heart in the blink of an eye..


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